I just for once would like to get some good luck in my life.
I have a hand-painted and pinstriped plate hanging in my garage that says "unlucky" with a cobweb and black widow spider. I have it because I am unlucky. I should just get it tattooed on me, LOL! I have the absolute worst luck in the world. But I love life and live it to the max. I don't turn anything over to luck, because I know if I do it will go against me every time. Luck = chance, and I do not leave my life to chance.
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and now I don't have the heart to tell them that I had failed once again.
H leaving you is not YOUR failure, it is his failure. Same with my W. Sure I did things wrong in the M, but I've corrected all those mistakes and made myself into the spouse only a fool would leave and still my W shuts me out. So that makes HER the fool and the failure. If you fix yourself then you are not a failure, you're a success story.
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As much as I'm so grateful to have my boys I so wished that I had never moved to H hometown . I should have just listen to my friends the had told me that I would not be very happy moving to the state I'm living in right now.
We all have regrets in life. You can make yourself miserable thinking about them or you can accept them, learn from them and move on.
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Just for once I would love like to get some good luck on my side.
Don't leave things to chance, you have the power to make a great life for yourself. What is holding you back is fear of the unknown and fear of change. Up to this point you've been a victim of H, he has changed your life against your will. So take the reigns away from him and YOU drive the changes from now on. Accept life without him. Figure out what YOU want to do and put that plan into action. That is the path to healing. You can do this, you're going to discover you're way more powerful and resilient than you thought!
