NEW LIFE / NEW ME - AIRBORNE II

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KP, LTH, HWA

Much gratitude! This forum and the people in here seem to be my lifeline.
THANKS!

What do you want to do?

Yesterday’s post about declining was what I wanted but reading yours, LTHs and HWAs post gives me the doubts big time. It seems like I am not capable of making the right decision before long after it is supposed to be made.

T1000 once wrote something about this:

I have found that with DB you don't understand the parts you are working on until you have moved through it. That's why taking the vets advice is so important.

This is me! To the point!

It doesn't have to be a traumatic experience

I thought so yesterday, but right now I feel I should trust your judgment more than my own so I will do exactly that!

Because it's how you think you should be? Not so fine.

KP, A big part of me still feels like declining but reading you gives me the doubt if the Ds are my real motive or if something is beneath.

Put on something nice and easy, get some things to discuss ready in your head. Get a game out, and try and get the family to play it. Just have fun. Don't mindread or put anything else into it.

HWA, Thanks! Your advice means a lot these days and just reading them makes me once again realize what a MAJOR step you have taken during the past four months.


I have emailed W that dinner will be just fine and I will make something light and easy for them.
I can’t express my gratitude! Thanks for keeping me straight!

See...lots of possibilities - no mindreading F!!!!

I know! And if it was just the wave then fine, but I see a lot of small signs these days and when I add them up it is hard not to start thinking; after all I am unfortunately equipped with my twisted brain….but there is many small things happening these days.
One more little example I noticed today. Her email from yesterday bagan with “Hey you”. That was very normal before BD. It disappeared when I started LRT and have been totally gone until yesterday.
I am not mindreading that she is warming up – I am just noticing change.
In fact if I should mindread I would properly just say she taking a second run for family time (cake). That proves that I am trying to mindread I wont act on it though!


I find myself backsliding from focus on me and GAL because of these recent events – need to get back on track right now so I have just called two old friends I haven't seen for a long time and booked coffee with one and dinner with the other. They seemed happy to hear from me


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