new start for me

[kelela]

I'm really scared I'm hoping that when I go to get help thru The county for my electric and heating that I will be approved for the help. If not I dont know what I'm going to do about heating my home for the winter. I just for once would like to get some good luck in my life. No matter what I do I always fail in everything. Like when I moved to H home town I lost my friends because I they really didn't like him because he was taking me away from everything that I know and love but I told them that he was really good to me and he will take good care of me. About ten years ago I was able to make up with my friends from back home and now I don't have the heart to tell them that I had failed once again. As much as I'm so grateful to have my boys I so wished that I had never moved to H hometown . I should have just listen to my friends the had told me that I would not be very happy moving to the state I'm living in right now. And I told them that i will be OK cause I had H and he would never hurt me. Oh I was so wrong on that and now I'm where I told them that I will never end up at. Just for once I would love like to get some good luck on my side.