Strange observations. W has been sleeping with her back turned to me since BD. I laughed when I read "Midlife for Dummies" a while back because she had perfected the art of sleeping on 6 inches of bed next to her nightstand and phone. For the last 2 nights, she has turned toward me to sleep. I know it seems trivial, but it's funny how we notice every little thing when we are on this side if the roller coaster. I've had to resist reaching out and touching her. I've wanted to run my fingers through her hair or just hold her hand. Just wanna tell her I'm here and everything will be OK.
She has been talking to me about what she's looking at on her phone as well. It's almost like she wants to reassure me she's not cheating. I have let that one go. I gave up on stopping that weeks ago. She's gotten so into watching sports with us now it's like she's trying to reconnect. I'm trying not to read too much into it, but it's nice. She even helped S10 with an art project tonight and spent 2 hours just devoted to him. Maybe finding little pieces of herself?
Tomorrow holds more challenges. I heard Tim McGraw's "Live Like You Were Dying" tonight. It's what most of us Standers are doing. One day at a time, living life to become better.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
