Ha- that is so me. Love to wallow in a good sad song. I personally think it is a healthy outlet. (What song?)
From your signature I see things have happened very fast for you. You definitely haven't had enough time to "Be ready" The grieving process takes time. Take care of yourself.
Me 44 H 42 M 10 T 12 (at time of BD) Ss 20 16 S11 (special needs)
BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom 10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied S and I move out 3/15