Whenever I screw up and do something that I realize is the old me, I try to tell my W ASAP that I realized that I acted in a way that I didn't like and apologize.

These changes don't happen overnight. One important point to make is you can't just say opps and never have 180 actions. Meaning the correct behavior needs to increase and the old decrease.

Another note, don't use an apology as a way to contact her, make it as it happens or if it comes up again, remember it's not your words, it is your actions.

M46,W41
D16,D18
M22,T25
BD 11/12
W moved out 01/13
Piecing 10/13
Divorced 01/15
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can."
UrWorthy