Well, it's been about 5 months since my last post. Plenty of time to mess things up. In truth, things fell apart a couple of weeks after my last post. I just wasn't ready for the emotional roller coaster. W came home angry at one point and didn't want to be in the same room as me. I'm still not sure why.

Anyway, I got angry too. Things were getting better, and then, suddenly, they were back to where they were without any cause. I got over the anger pretty quickly, but the damage was done. The separation became permanent.

One day in September, I was spending time with the kids. W came home and got angry that I wasn't doing enough with the kids. I got angry back and said I'd live at the house full time then (no more separation). She started packing up the kids stuff to leave the house. I called the cops. She only left with 1 child that night (the 1 not in school). The motion for divorce came the next week.

The court date was supposed to be at the end of October. We came to an agreement via lawyers on the day of the court date. We each get to spend ~1/2 the time at the house with the kids. I pay more toward expenses because I make more. W said a couple of times that she didn't understand the agreement. I think she is just so messed up that she can't think straight. She kept saying her lawyer agreed to such and such...not her. Just a little bit frustrating...

It has been over a month since the agreement/court date. Things have quieted down. No more arguments. I've started talking less and not answering my phone. I figure if it's important she'll text or leave a message. Time to work on my life. Painted my oldest son's room. Planning a vacation with the kids after Christmas. Just got a promotion at work.

I smile more and wear cologne. W noticed cologne on Saturday. W talks about getting a house. She looked at a couple. She says things could be going great right now if not for the divorce. I agree and say things could be great...