WR, They tend to cry the blues that they have no money, but really they do. They just don't want to share it w/the family, especially the spouse.
I'm very happy to read that you are starting to decorate and your son helped w/the decorating outside. This should be a boost to morale and give the boys something to look forward to. I'm also glad to read that you got out and did shopping and had some fun. As for the dress...true, you may not have been able to afford it, but you've not done one thing for yourself since this all started...so I think it was okay to splurge on the dress and I'm sure you'll look great for the wedding awards and the Christmas party.
As for the stereo blasting away...good for you! The music he heard let him know that life is going on and he's missing out big time. Poor thing...couldn't hear a word your son said. LOL!
You and your boys will be fine...it's going to be okay, whether your h is there for the holidays for not...it's time for new traditions and maybe you and your boys can create some new ones.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
