It's only fear that makes you run

[Whiterose]

Thank you AJ. I'll look into it and see what is going on with my lawyer. H is asking what the boys want for Christmas and I wonder where he's getting the money for presents and not food?

I would guess that if they have a snap going into mlc there would be a light bulb coming out it's just a matter of acknowledging it.

Funny, well to me funny, thing happened yesterday. S19 and his friend put up our Christmas lights, something h does every year, so he had to call his dad about a few things. It wasn't working so S19 was asking me, I've never put lights on a gutter, I said I had no idea. Maybe call your dad back. He came in to get the phone and, I thought, had gone back outside. I was vacuuming and the song "good life" by one republic, came on the radio and I turned it up. It's our Disneyworld song. Disney had made the song a part of their 2011/2012 ad campaign so when we surprised the boys with the trip we woke them up at midnight, school night, blaring that song and said "it's time to go!" Anyway, it was the family trip of a lifetime. We saved for 6 years to go. I digress......s19 was talking to H in his room, right in the next room, and H wasn't impressed with the level of the stero and s19 came out and said "mom!" I turned off the vacuum and the stero down and apologized and said I thought you'd gone outside. He got off the phone and said "dad said first thing first turn down the stero!" I guess he doesn't like the Disneyworld song anymore. Lol.

Went out with a friend yesterday. She works at a sports store and was able to get me clothes and runners for the boys for Christmas 50-60% off. I spent a lot of money but it was all stuff the boys need (track pants, shirts, pj bottoms, socks, fun stuff like that. Lol. Found some Canucks boxer shorts, shaped like a puck, and slippers for stocking stuffers too). Then we went to a local tree lighting for about an hour then we went to a cute little store where I tried on a dress that looked good on me, and I have the wedding awards this Wednesday and I can wear it to the warehouse Christmas party.....I shouldn't have bought it because I can't afford it but I've lost so much weight nothing fits and it made me feel pretty. I joked with my girlfriend, and the sales lady, that it was too bad most of the men are gay at the awards......lol. So that's Wednesday. Then Thursday my mom won some passes to a craft fair right by my house so I'm going.

When we were going through some stores yesterday I was looking at the ornaments and started to cry. Christmas is getting closer and I'm missing h but then I stopped and had fun.