He told me in our deep elephant in the room convo, long story short here, that he probably has not forgiven me for having an EA years ago. He said he still has resentment for that. He also has said many times that he has not forgiven himself for the PAs he has had, one years ago and one now(makes me wonder how many more there were that I didn't know about). He admits he was much more immature on handling that, but it took a great whack to his male pride.
He always relied on me and our great sex to make him happy. He once told me it just made everything seem better. So that made me feel like well he can go out and get sex with ANYBODY, so where was the emotional attachment with me, the ML part. This has been non-existent for him for about 10 years now, before my EA and much more after.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
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