It's Not Over 'Till It's Over

[Fight4MyWife]

If things hadn't already taken enough of a negative turn recently, I then had the perfect opportunity for a 180, but I failed massively.

I had over a month of being very disciplined and detached and the atmosphere between us was starting to feel better, then with all this talk of finances and the house over the past week there feels to be tension and a bad atmosphere again.

One of the complaints my wife would have about our marriage is that she feels that I am critical of her and always find fault in things she does.

I was going away for the weekend with my son, and as I was going to be out of the house I thought I would put some de-scaler in the toilet to soak for a couple of days.

I popped in the house on my way from work to feed the cats before I left and noticed somebody had been in the house.

When picking up my son I asked my wife if she had been in the house & she said she had got off the bus in the area and needed to use the toilet so popped in the house.

I said “Oh no you are joking, I just put some de-scaler in there to soak while I went away, I can't believe the only time I decided to do that was the day you popped in to use the toilet, what are the chances”

She just shrugged her shoulders.

Afterwards I realised this was the perfect opportunity to react differently and do a 180, but I missed it and did more of the same behaviour.

I wondered if I should acknowledge that I realised or just leave it, so I decided to send a text where I said “I really didn't mean to make you feel bad, sorry if I did, I just couldn't believe the chances. It's really not important though, sorry for even mentioning it.”

Just as things have already been difficult between us recently I then go and do this which is exactly the kind of thing she doesn't like about me, I can't believe what an idiot I am.

On top of all that, while she was in the house she probably would have seen my Divorce Busting & Divorce Remedy books lying around.

Arrrrrrggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!