I am continuing my responses now because I like, had to work and stuff, you know? Interferes with perfectly good forum time.
Bug and uW: you guys are basically saying the same thing and thank you Usually I am more balanced, but then again, I don't post when I am not thinking about H or in his space because then I would be thinking of him lol. But I really know these things.
This leads me to my next stage. Now, disclaimer, this doesn't take up space in my head or life.
H and I had a great weekend away. He commented twice on how we started off polite etc. and then it was let loose by the end (in a good way). We both had a phenomenal time, just driving, hanging around, out for dinner, lunch etc. We chatted a bit, nothing too serious. H said he was so proud of what I was doing and that I was amazing at my job. He said that I should never feel like a burden for doing my schooling etc., because he was living vicariously through it to an extent and never ever feels that I am an obligation.
Of course he said he has to put in H disclaimers (about dating each other) but in my head it always seems like his "out" you know? As if he can say at anytime "I told you I hadn't made up my mind."
In response to this, I am sticking to my timeline and will see exactly where he is or isn't. It will require a more definite commitment if he wants to continue our relationship or if he is still unsure, or even thinks he does not want a relationship, then he gets all the time and a heck of a lot of space to grow. That is in terms of me setting boundaries so I can continue to move forward with my life. I am perfectly aware that my movement is still forward right now, but slower than it should be.
I have no expectation from the future. I have wants (especially after having H in my life and bed for 72 hours ), but you don't always get what you want.
I am perfectly prepared to do what I have to to ensure that I, and in turn H, can move forward in this life.
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