My job as the man that she chose to allow into her life is to let her walk this path and find the strength to heal. I cannot heal those scars for her, this I accept. I can keep her safe and keep her children safe while she walks this road. In making this monumental choice to stand, to forgive, to understand, I will find my true self.
As painful as the last 6 months of my life have been, the growth I have experienced is real and lasting. I stand because I believe in myself and I believe in my beautiful wife. She will come out of this fog. When she makes it out if the tunnel, I'll be here where I belong. I'll be a strong father for 2 boys. I'll be the man that held the house together. I'll be the man that chose to stand. Not because I'm better. Not because I'm superior. But because I can humble myself and understand my own journey. When she comes out of the tunnel, maybe she will want me, maybe she won't. That's not in my hands. The only thing I can do is chose my road and walk it with determination and my head held high knowing that it was my choice.
That's a hard road to walk, my friend. But one that is well worth it.
Let us know if you have some trouble with that later and we'll help you stand. Your kids are very lucky as well.
Did you run this past weekend? There were several in this area. I chose a 5k that included chocolate along the way. Chilly but fun... Keep the exercise routine going, J. And remember to stretch to avoid injury
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
