I have always enjoyed reading Robert Frost's poems and this is one of my favorites.

I agree w/Pudmuddle, I do hope and pray that some day your wife will come to realize what a wonderful man you are and just how lucky she's been to have you in her life.

Hang in there.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.