You're right, you're not going to get that from him right now and you may never get that. Accepting that allows you to take one step further in the direction of your life.

You can have a good,even grat life with or without H. I know you want him in it but that's not available to you right now, so make your life great.

Focus on YOU.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss