Yeah, it is definitely the case that I have a lot of emotions and I think his general indifference towards me really makes it boil to the top sometimes. It really pisses me off to be treated like a roommate and as if me and our son are secondary concerns, when he is off doing so many ridiculous and self destructive things. Also I totally do not like him projecting distrust on to me when he is the one behaving distrustfully.
Reading the boards it is clear that really being married doesn't make anyone less prone to being cast away by their MLC spouse, but it is a sad reality that it puts me in a weaker position financially if we do end up splitting for good. He keeps saying he loves our son and will never make us have to leave this house and his school situation and stuff. I mentioned that it might make me feel less anxiety about it if he signed something stating his intentions to continue to pay for the house regardless of what happens to us. He did not like that idea at all. He seemed to think that if he signed something like that I could "use it against him" ...more wacko thinking. If his intention is to do it, then why would I HAVE to ever use it against him? I just told him that because he changes his mind a lot these days I am just having a hard time taking his word for it on something as big and as important as the housing situation. I told him I didn't expect him to sign anything, I just felt like the reassurance would help me feel a little more secure about the future for my son and I regardless of what happens down the road.
me-35 WAS-37 T-16 1/2 Son-14 (HF Aspergers) BD,ILYBINILWY,"I met my soulmate": Oct5,2013 "Letting go because I love him, holding on because I love him."