The Big Hill

[tigerlily78]

You are practically a ninja of truth darts.

I think you may need to be a little careful though in putting too much emphasis on the disease as it could be seen as making an excuse, and instead focus on admitting that even with depression, you had the free will and opportunity to make other choices, you were just blind to that in the moment. We can't choose our emotions, but we can choose how to act on them or NOT act on them. And when we struggle with those emotions we need to find a way to be comfortable bringing them to our spouse or our existing support circle to get guidance and help... turning to someone outside our R just makes things more complicated, it doesn't tend to resolve the underlying feelings.