The Big Hill

[tigerlily78]

Wowzers. So is this the first time you guys have really both talked about both your affairs? Seems like maybe a little light is seeping into some dark places you both had shut away. I hope this leads to some good movement, but you should be prepared for him to overreact just in case. Depends on if he is ready for the light or if he needs to creep back into the tunnel a little further to avoid it. :P

It's such weird timing that you had this talk. When we were talking yesterday mine brought up an EA I had a long time ago (12 years ago)... "it's just like with you and what's his face." I thought it was kind of weird that he would bring up MY mistake, as rationalization for his mistake, after I have very openly and many times accepted and admitted it WAS A HUGE MISTAKE. It seems like the important morsel of the story he keeps forgetting is WHY I was weak to that circumstance (young mom, really lonely, depressed, had a stressed out and distant H), and that ultimately when the A was exposed and I needed to make a choice, I CHOSE H and never looked back. It was really that easy for me when I had to look at the situation and come to grips with what I stood to lose. I even told him very early after BD that I thought I knew how he was feeling, because I had felt the exact same way when I had my EA... but now years later I know I was deluded. I think he has convinced himself since mine was an online thing and his is a real flesh and blood person who lives in our area that somehow she is more valid and less delusion.