Ambivalent and Lily, The MLCer isn't always looking for the beauty queen or king when they are seeking out affair partners. They generally look for someone that is a step down or two. What the affair partner provides is an escape from reality and strokes their egos. They do not question what the MLCer is doing at first and they provide all of the attention and admiration they can to keep them on their leash.
However, there are a few MLCers who will seek out those that are a few steps above them, but the bottom line is the morals are still the same, i.e., cheating w/married people, providing them the avenues for "exit affairs" into a world of fantasy.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.