Hanging on to the roller coaster

[CallaghanClown]

Hey tiger I'm getting there. Just when I'm about to pat myself on the back for detaching so well, I get sucked in. But I'm proud of myself for how far I've come in such a short time.

When this started I prayed that by Christmas this would all be over, but I can't see me being ready to even have 'the chat' with him by Christmas. It would take more than a few short months for me to be able to contemplate taking him back.

Even seeing how much I hated being angry today made me see how far I'd come. Before I would justify my anger. I'd always have a great reason for being a 'screamy mummy'. Now there is no reason for it. I'm calmer, more reasonable and I'm not resentful.

H didn't contact the kids from Thursday till tonight. I started to panic so did a quick check to see If he was ok. He was at a very expensive spa with his friend. Rather than feel resentful, I felt better that I was the kind of person that worries about people, then got on with having fun with the kids. His loss and its of no concern to me if he doesn't want to contact his kids. They didn't ask for him anyway!