Don't know what to think

[tigerlily78]

Not feeling too good today. Feels like 3 steps forward and two back. I just miss him soooo much.

Sorry you are having a down day. I know that feeling too well. Climbing in a big, empty cold bed at night and all of that... it's tough to get used to.

Wow, so the neighbor really sees H is going through a difficult time too. I wouldn't assume that you know what he is talking about when he says "everything he's lost" ...the relationship could be in there too, they just have a tendency to be vague or general. It's very possible your H has to walk himself right up to the edge of divorce before it really all hits him in the face. There have been several other cases on the boards that seemed to go that way. I wouldn't give up all hope just yet, but at the same time you need to take those practical steps to prepare yourself and be ready to move on if indeed he is really ready to go through with the D.

So sorry for you. Sending hugs.