Working more on me!

[mishka422]

There are so many emotions running around my head right now.

The household is down to one working vehicle. Gabe's car has been broken down for several months with very expensive repairs needed so he has been driving the golf cart to work. Thankfully that is an option until now. Now, the batteries in the golf cart have finally given up. It needs a full new set - $600. That's less than the repairs on the car but more money than I've got access to. It got to me big time this morning and I had to go hide in the bathroom and just cry it out. UGH! I hate that!

As much as I hope that Thanksgiving will be fun, I have a bad feeling about it. Being in TN, up in the Smokies in a huge chalet with my family should be fun right? But.....I feel like a third wheel in their close knit families. They are my cousins but they are all from one portion of the family so they have closer ties. They work together, play together, etc. I seem to only get to spend time with them during holidays even though we all live within 2 miles of each other. It feels like I'm an obligation they have to invite because of the holiday. I'm just hoping to make the best of it.

Lastly, my heart is breaking a little bit because I'm realizing that this is going to be a season of lasts with Marc. Last birthday (he turns 19 on this Tuesday), last Thanksgiving, last Christmas, and New Year. I want to make it memorable for all of us but he's a boy and he could care less. It really stinks to be the only girl in the house. Heck, even the darned dog is a boy!