Good Morning all,

Weekend has been moving right along. H had a doctor appt. after work and didn't show up until what I considered well after the appt. should have been finished. We did go out to dinner with S, H slept downstairs again. H was kind of lagging, hesitating before he went to bed, like he wanted to sleep with me, but didn't want to say that. About 6:30 Sat. morning H did come up to our bed. S got up, gave him breakfast and we .

Got up, took S to the circus. S had a good time, but didn't sit still for a lot of it so of course H thinks S didn't like the circus. I sometimes think H treats S4 like he's 14 or something or well. On the ride home, H was very quiet, didn't say a whole lot so I left him alone. H was like that most of the afternoon. H then complained of ringing in his ears, couldn't figure out why it wouldn't go away which contributed to his mood. H's body is slowly falling apart and he will be 50 this year I think that if H would get it through his head that alcohol is not contributing to his health or emotional problems.

S and I went to a basketball game Saturday night, H opted out, didn't want to go. Even had a ticket for him. I, of course, ASSume he's going to call OW, got to his bar or go to OW's, can't help it the thoughts just go through my mind. They have been going "through" my mind, meaning in one side and out the other, I have been trying not to place any meaning to them other than just thoughts that will continue to be there until H opens up to me. H did call while at the game, wanted us to bring some food home for him, but in the meantime managed to find something to eat.

S fell asleep in the car, H and I watched a movie together. I looked at recipes, watched the movie with H on one side of the couch and me on the other. I fell asleep on the couch. H woke me up we both got ready for bed. H told me I could sleep downstairs, I said I didn't want to. I don't like sleeping down there for one thing and H was the one who decided to sleep down there.

So then the fun begins. S has been up since about 1 am, with the flu, both ends. Today he looks so dehydrated and he's very listless also. I didn't wake H up last night to tell him about S either. I thought I'd let him sleep I was handling the situation. H did ask me why I didn't wake him and I just said "why?"

H has been in a "mood" today, trying to push buttons. Trying to blame the "flu" on the way I feed our S. I told H S had a hotdog at the basketball game. My dad worked for Oscar Mayer and we had hotdogs all the time which I told H. H said "no you didn't" he does this just to button push. I said how do you know, you didn't live with us? H said no I didn't and I don't now either! On average he's been making a comment like at least once weekly I do not respond! H did go get sprite for S and when he came back, he seemed to be in a different mood. One of being sorry for being the way he was before he left. H then had to get his prescription I asked if he stop and get coffee and he said yes he could do that.

H is at Menards, son is in bathtub cause his butt hurts. I'm going to get him out, so will be back later hopefully with more "remarks and comments" from H. It's going to be an up and down kind of day!!

Cathy