You know, R, I know about fear. I graduated with a degree in it. I had all kinds of fear. Fear of failure. Fear of success. Fear of change. And if I am to be honest, I still feel that to some degree. Sometimes, I just have to push right through it. I say to myself, whats the worst that can happen? I wont die, (unless I am skydiving or something - LOL). Sure, it is scary. I know scared, too.Trust me on that. But you know what? I make it through. And it is never anywhere near as bad as what I thought. All that worrying and fear was wasted energy.
I felt privileged to be included as part of his plan!
You know I love you, my friend. So, I am going to be honest because that's the only way I know how to be. You say things like that often ^^^. And I get why you feel that way. However, I want you to try to get the mindset that you deserve to be included in his plans, ya know? And that he is very lucky you stood.
He can make it financially without me, but he said he thought I would enjoy real estate.
Do you think you would enjoy it? Thats the important thing.
He said he thought I wasn't studying enough b/c I don't want to do it. It's about that guilt that the boys need me at home. Not moving on to my new stage in life. I can see ahead why empty-nesters would have such trouble.
Ok, that's what he said. What are your thoughts? Why do you think you werent studying enough. Is it about the kids or something else?
I told him about changing my focus to my own life more. And encouraging the boys to be more self-sufficient.
Also, I haven't wanted to study the state law. It is 72 pages of law and I put it in iBooks and now am going through and making detailed notes. I think I can. I think I can....
I know you can. I just want to be sure you know you can - if that is really what you want to do.
I also asked H, matter-of-factly, to give me more verbal compliments. I said that I can see it on his face when he thinks I look good, but I want to hear it. He said he thought he did. I validated, yes you do, but I want to hear more.
I know it is very important to hear those things from him. But, you know, R, be your own mirror, too. And remember the beautiful person you are on the inside.
Get other mirrors, too. Connect with people more. When you are out alone or with h, watch people's faces. See how they enjoy being around you. What is it that they see about you? ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Now, this week, I went to a nice department store. I said I would pick out my own stuff. I got a bunch of clothes and tried them on. I bought several that looked really nice on me. And that's when H looked at me when I got home and had that "you look great" look on his face!
The part I like about this, is that part. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
I'm really glad I decided to go. Yes Sexy Lady will be there and I don't know who else.
Who cares about her? You are a sexy lady, too.
I do know both H's drinking buds really like me.
Why wouldnt they? Just sayin....Be you, R.
And you know, in a M, you hafta do SOME stuff out of your comfort zone. These people mean a lot to my H and it isn't like these gatherings are as often as every month even.
Yep, and it's always good to go outside your comfort zone. Now how about thinking of some things you would like to do with him, even if it is outside his comfort zone.
