You can't just point the boat of your life in the right direction and leave it to the auto-pilot to keep you on course. If you let your attention lapse, you'll run into a series of awkward factors, from rocks to icebergs and other vessels, all of which require a constant presence on deck. Stay alert a little longer while you steer safely past these potential problems. You may be tired of having to hold the whole show together but if you can summon enough energy to remain behind the wheel for a few more days, you'll approach a point from which the coast is wonderfully clear.
Hmmmm....today I am feeling like this, like I'm doing all the work. I can't go on "auto-pilot" and really don't want to either as this is where the problems all began. I'm trying to monitor this and am feeling a twinge of resentment and need to get rid of it.
I had to take the garbage out this morning, I made H's lunch last night and H didn't take it with him this morning. I'm thinking I'm doing all these nice things and get no thank you's or acknowledgements for any of it.
H was in his quiet mode again last night. It's like he goes into himself. The last two nights he's been watching TV and I can tell he has no clue what else is going on around him.
There were many positives last night, also. H and S were outside, we were grilling out. H came to the patio window and said "S wants you to get your x-skis out and go skiing" and I thought what a great idea!! I was going to the treadmill, but to be outside and ski sounded even better. So H gets the skiis out of our back garage and brings them in the house for me...I mean how nice was that! I did comment make this same comment to H, too. So I did laps around the yard, S came out and played hockey in the driveway. It was beautiful out. We have trees along out lot line, we're next to open field and each time I went around a few tree branches would wap me on the head and what do I do I just keep going by the same trees and getting wapped. It was like I didn't want to get off my path. I would have to forge a new trail.
H did do the dishes while S and I were outside. When we came back in I thanked H for doing the dishes and for getting my skis out. I haven't x-country since before our S was born or longer which is at least 5 years.
