That surely is strange his Russian obsession, lol, wow.
Hey Linda, been reading along and I agree with uR. What kinds of things could you do to get yourself unstuck?
Like she said, it is an experiment and if it doesn't work then don't do it again. I think you will have to think of what would work for you and your sitch. For example, I started experimenting with touching H's hand or small physical touches. There was a time when he was backing way off or ducking his head. Now, he is accepting and almost seems to welcome it. But do it all with no expectations and don't let it ruin your mood if he rebuffs.
What do you think you could try? What is something you did for him before BD that he used to like?
C'mon give it a try!
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