I'm sure that you needed to get this out, because it hurts so much. In reality I don't think he has the capability right now to understand any of it. So it will fall on deaf ears at the moment. If you don't feel bad about it, it was probably something you needed to get out.
So how do you feel today? What are you going to do going forward? Take the focus of Beardometer and Twinkle Twat and do things for YOU tiger. You really need this right now. Giving him the focus gives him a sort of power over you and I can tell you are much stronger than that. You took some of it back by expressing your deep feelings but don't let it consume you.
You are a very strong person, I know you can do this.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.
