This will be the first weekend for me DBing, as last weekend she was away visiting her grandparents so we were not around each other. I have planned the whole weekend out in my mind to stay busy and try to let her see that I am ok. This morning (Saturday), I plan on doing my share of the housework as usual (dishes, laundry and just picking up), then I plan on taking my dog for a nice long walk, then I will take my son out in the yard to rake leaves together for a few hours. Tonight I am going to spend some time at my friends house before finally coming home to sleep on the couch.

Tomorrow will be similar, with the exception of I will not be going to my friends but instead will find something fun to do with my son.

I will not be asking her what her plans are, I will not be inviting her to do any of these activities with me, if she asks to join me I will say of course she can.

But most important I will not ask anything about how she is feeling about the relationship. That has to remain my #1 goal from here in out, I get that part now.

Won't she miss not having me around, even if it is just to use me as a doormat? I mean the smallest things like eating dinner together or watching tv together. I fear that this could backfire and make her decision easier!!

I guess it doesn't matter, I have to do what needs to be done at this point for my own sanity.


Me 37
W 33
son 3
T 4 years
M 1.5 years
BD 11/14 - W wants a divorce
11/17-current W wants a separation
currently living together

"The slightest bit of light, and I can see you clear" -Eddie Vedder