Tad, It's okay to feel bad about your xw's destruction, but please do not allow it to bring you down. She had choices to make and she chose the destructive route. Let it go.
I'm glad your sons are going to be spending Thanksgiving w/you. That should be a great time for you and them to bond and have a nice, relaxed day. Enjoy the day and be thankful for all that you do have, i.e., your mother is still here w/you, your health and your family. Sometimes life throws us lemons and we have to make the best lemonade we can.
That is very odd that Phoenix is getting rain for four straight days. I can remember visiting friends out there and you might get a shower once in a while. I can also remember, driving by some homes and thinking..."look, these people are watering the soil". I thought it was very strange, but I soon learned why they were doing that. LOL!
Tad, I know you think you are stuck and a mess, but you are slowly getting to where you need to be. It takes time and you will dig yourself out of your hole. I have faith in you!
Enjoy your Thanksgiving!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.