WORKING TOWARD CONNECTING WORKING ON ME

[reachingHigher]

Okay, who's Julie?

[Ambivalent]

Inquired about four more jobs.

Need to get turkey

Feeling weird today, may be 'cause the sun isn't out.

I can't go back to the counselor, she isn't on my H's insurance network.

This really is irritating, for I am supposed to go to what is available to the network. This puts me too far from home and eating a ton of gas, for someone that may not even get what I'm doing.

I'm going to scrounge for one here, and pray I get another job soon. That money will allow me to do the phone counseling. I wish their prices were below 100.00. If I have to choose between food and counseling , it won't be food.

[Ambivalent]

Thankful for:

A warm bed

Good workout

Leaves are cleared out of front yard

I don't have to get up at four a.m. this morn

I had fun at dance tonight

Burned a ton of calories

[Whiterose]

I love to dance!!!

I'm grateful for my warm bed too....with the flannel sheets:)

Good luck on the job hunt.......you're doing fantastic and and I'm so happy for you!!

[Ambivalent]

Thanks Whiterose,

H. texted and I called him back. He's had a tough week. First earlier he blew out a front tire. Then today his driver's window is stuck in the down position.

He had to drive all day with it in that position. He said he didn't want to take the SUV from me and stick me with his car.

So this morning they are going in one car and if both get a deer, then they'll figure out how to get the suv.

I'm trying to keep sounding positive, but am getting tired of bits and pieces of him. I want him, and I want him physically too! We just passed our six months separation.

[beatrice]

I want him, and I want him physically too! We just passed our six months separation.

You may not be alone on these boards in that sentiment. Oh Amba, six months really isn't very long inthe great scheme of things.

We learn patience here, and you know something? It is so good for us! You are doing great, and hugs coming your way Just keep your expectations low. You have a kitty Kitten MLCer right now, and it could be a lot worse (as well as a lot better, I agree)

[Ambivalent]

Hey Gabby's,

Julie is the organizer of his meetup group. She is 57, self employed. Big boobs, no hips, but she's got a gut.

Probably doesn't know that I'm around, since he's without a ring. There are no events for the next two months, so no reason for her to call his cell phone twice within a half an hour , last Saturday. Most photo's of her are without makeup, tends to look a bit mannish. Curious , very curious.

[Ambivalent]

Hey Bea.,

He may be for now, I just worry what would happen if he "fell in love ". I know there is another side to him. I've seen it.

Do they usually stay this way through out? Or do they suddenly turn into beasts?

On another note, I'm not a patient person, so a crumb for me every now and then would be so nice.

Thanks for the hugs I reeeeally need them.

[Ambivalent]

Got up late this morn,

Had fun sweating last night, and have to admit a huge smile is on my face when dancing. It is truly cathartic for me to move, work hard and be thrown around! Ha!

I got two interesting compliments from two different gentlemen. One asked how long I'd been doing this? And I asked , why? He thought I new what I was doing and was good!

Another said he liked my hip action! Whatever THAT means ?

I made a new friend, Margaret. I believe she's close to my age. She was funny and kept trying to get me to ask someone to dance. Se also invited me to go to another dance and ride with another man. I politely declined.

List for today:

Shower

work on downstairs

eat

do a load of laundry

work out

Haven't gotten on scale yet, crossing my fingers!

[beatrice]

Hi, no guarantees with MLC but the mean ones tend to stay mean and vice versa. They all have outbursts, but I suspect that he will not turn into one of the spewers - heavens, he put gas in your car!!!!

I wasn't a patient person, but I have learned it.

This is our journey too, and it sin't just about getting a buff body, though I must say I enjoy that part of it.