Guess I belong here now...

[sweetbabyred]

Linda, I really don't believe horoscopes either, but I look at them occasionally for fun. And when I noticed a theme over several days, I really hoped that maybe they could be true. Especially when they all had a positive outcome, even if it was a ways in the future.

I almost always let xh initiate the texts, unless there's something important I need to share. Now that we're divorced, not too much can't wait until he contacts me.

Last week he drove to fl to see fl girl because she apparently begged him and said she'd pay for his gas. he drove back fri and wanted me to go watch him play vball that night. I thought it was odd that he was asking me to go, but agreed to meet up after work. He picked me up at my place and that's when I found out about the trip.

On Sat I got to spend part of the day with ss12 who will be going back to ny any day now. I stayed over there and that night xh asked if I ever thought we could get back together. Then he said he often thought about it, but was sure we wouldn't work! I didn't say much, but did think it was interesting that he still thinks about us, even if it's negatively.

On Wed, he invited me over to dinner on Thursday. I went and had a good time, although he did do some texting. And he told me that fl is trying to get him to visit her again on monday.

It almost seems if he pokes his head out of mlc, but doesn't want to do the work to make a r work. Because he knows what could go wrong with us and what our problems were. With anyone else, it's exciting and new and he can just imagine that things will be perfect with them.

So now I'm trying to decide if I continue on with this strange friendship where it's almost like we're a couple, but we're clearly not and see what happens or if I decide that it's not enough for me and I want to find someone who can devote themselves to working on a r.

I have 3 weeks left in the semester and tons of work until the end of the year. It may be time to do a clean sweep in the new year. I don't want to lose him from my life, but I'm not sure how much longer I can wait to see if he grows up with no guarantee that he'll ever come back to me.