It is raining here in the desert and has been since last night. It's also supposed to rain tomorrow and Sunday. This is the first time that I can remember rain being in the forecast for four days straight in Phoenix. Strange days.....
Mom continues to hang on and I don't know why. She is still a little snippy, but not as bad. However, now she seems not to be able to trust anyone. She seems very untrusting of everyone. Someone told me that they knew of a few people that were like that before they passed so I'm guessing that it is kind of normal?
THE SITCH UPDATE:
Not much really, but I do think something is wrong with me. I'll explain:
S18 told me that he will be staying here with me for Thanksgiving. He has not told XW yet. So...all four of my boys will be with me this year. It will be the first time since 2010, when this mess started, that I have had all four of them for Thanksgiving. This makes me very happy. VERY happy.
But.....
I find myself feeling bad for XW. After the affair, the lies, the hurtful words and actions, after EVERYTHING she has put me and my sons through, I feel bad for her. I really do. She will not be seeing any of our sons over the Thanksgiving holiday. This makes me feel for her. Why? Why do I feel bad when it was her actions that put us in this mess we are in today? I don't need to tell you how much she has hurt the boys and me....you know because you are on this site. So....why does it make me feel bad for her? Seriously. Am I messed up mentally somehow? I'm wondering if I have some kind of mental/emotional defect. Would a normal person in my situation feel bad because this person that hurt us so badly is seeing the sad results from her actions?
Will she start to see these results and realize that it is because of her choices? Will she even feel bad or am I still the one that has to do all of the hurting?
Am I messed up to?
I know in my heart that I shouldn't feel bad, just because of everything, but I can't help feeling sad for her.
Tad
Currently: M 56 XW 57 Sons 38,33,31,29
The Sitch: Married 26 years EA w/ OM 9/10 Bomb 10/10 (5 weeks after 25th anniversary) Sep 12/10 She wants D 1/11 W files 5/11 D final 10/11 XW marries OM 6/13
