My H has been divorced twice before and knows the process. I don't want to give H the easy way out of this I can't in anyway make it my decision. Oh I threatened before, but haven't in a very long time. And in the past this is what has gotten H's attention. H isn't going to a lawyer, H isn't strong enough, I haven't been mean enough to make H go to a lawyer.
KAW I know you're struggling too, if you can hold on as long as you have, then I can too.