Feeling angry today. Nothing set it off, H didn't do or say anything - my switch just flipped to "cranky", I suppose.
I'm finding myself railing at the unfairness and injustice of it all today. H and I made a commitment to each other. We were supposed to be partners, a team, a united front. There are two people in this marriage, and four people in this family. So, how is it that HE gets to make this huge, unilateral decision that affects ALL of us? Why is it that we haven't sat down and talked, REALLY talked, about what happened, and discuss things like normal, sane, rational adults? Why all this avoidance? I know, I know - midlife crisis, blah blah blah, he's not sane and rational, blah blah blah, he can't face things, blah blah blah. I'm just so sick of being in the dark, and I am so sick of his selfish behavior, and inability to be an adult, changing the course of our lives. Bleh.
Oh well, tomorrow is another day, and I guess we're all allowed to put our crankypants on every now and again. Plus, I have a day of hiking in the mountains with S this weekend to look forward to!
