I know, I know. My H is just a houseguest who resides in the lower level of our house. It's quite nice actually. There is a stove, refrigerator, separate entrance, wet bar..all the comforts. The people who owned the house before us did rent it out, so if we truly do S, my plan is to rent out the lower level so that I can stay in this house.
For some reason when H moved back I thought it was because he wanted to work on the marriage, silly me! Whatever was I thinking. Now I see that it is not the case.
What I need to work on is the anxiety, the thoughts, the obsessing that I do on the nights that H decides not to come home. I could try sleeping pills, but really don't want to do that. I'd rather work on the "night fears" that creep in and figure out what the fears really are and where they are coming from.
Is my PMA up today because I'm detached or because H is coming home tonight...maybe both. I don't know or maybe because I know I'll be okay no matter what happens.
