Let me preface this by saying I know what I am about to say is not a healthy line of thought and I need to move beyond it. I am just trying to be honest.
That said, I go through moments (and this has been going on since this all began) where I feel as if I need to show her that I have evolved to the point of being aware of her happiness and looking out for it. That is a place where I know failed during our marriage/relationship. I feel as though (and I will say again I need to get over this) there is some level of ownership on my part that I need to show her. And that maybe if she gets it, her mind will change. I KNOW this is "magical" thinking.
I am trying to focus on the moments with my son.....just seems like they are so few at times.
