The Dance

[JFun51]

Still very disappointed by W's behavior last night. Even in her MLC fog, its not normal for her to ignore her boys and not tell them goodnight. She went straight to her room when we got home last night and watched tv, texted/facebooked for 3 hours alone. Zero interaction with any of us after she retreated. When I came to bed I told her I was going to sleep now and she put her phone away and turned off the light. Strange as well. She didn't try to push my buttons or anything. Weird. But every day is weird at this point.

Weekend plans are awesome. High School football tonight, college football tomorrow, and hopefully movies afterwards. Church and a great message on Sunday. All that followed by one of my favorite weeks of the year: Thanksgiving. Lots to give thanks for this year. As long as whatever I'm doing is with my boys, I'm excited.

State of my world summed up this morning: I get up first, as always. By the time I shower and dress, W's alarm is going off. As I stand in the MBR, she just grunts at me "Off, off." and points at the clock. I hit the snooze and go to get up S12 and S10. S12 rolls out of the bed easily and lets me hug him as soon as his feet hit the floor. S10 doesn't even wait. He smiles when I wake him up and lean in for a kiss on the forehead. He grabs me from the bed and gives me a big hug. We trade ILY's. I head into the bathroom where S12 is getting ready. We trade ILY's at W stands there looking in the mirror. I tell W bye, she looks at me, says bye and I'm off to my day.

Its funny how resilient kids are. I have made changes in myself that they obviously notice (they have told me) and they like. I get more hugs, high fives, kisses, and ILY's than ever. At the same time, the woman that I've known for 20 years is so resistant to accept any change in me. I feel great about where I'm headed. Someday maybe she will feel that way too. If not, I've got the 2 greatest reasons in the world to keep getting better.