Feeling down today. I feel very lonely and am jealous of my W. She is dating multiple men. Her phone never stops ringing. She has dates, a sex life, people calling her and telling her how much they want to be with her. I am her babysitter.
I want a romantic relationship. I want to hear I love you. I am tired of sleeping alone. I want sex!
In my head, I know her relationships are shallow and empty; broken people using each other. I know that I am not emotionally capable of having a healthy romantic relationship right now. I know that my kids need me and I should be thankful of the time I have with them. In my head I know all these things.
