Hey J, sorry you had a few down days. It happens. When you see your wife acting a bit normal, it gets your hopes up a bit, maybe without you realizing it.
But you also realize that your sitch is real, it is a long road and a lot of hard work is ahead and that can make you feel a little down or defeated.
All part of the process, I promise you.
The only way to do this, is through it.
So, shake it off if you can. See the bigger picture.
All parts of this journey are important. You dont want to skip any. Thats the only way to come out whole.
You have been doing wonderfully. Keep digging, keep praying, keep being your best self.