The tide is high, but I'm holding on

[RosaLinda]

"I want to forgive him, I do. Why else would I still be here? But I'm just not there yet - and I don't think that is wrong in any way.
Just as he will get to where he needs to be in his own time, so will I."

It's hard T, so so hard, especially when the MLCer is living at home and in your face every day, and even more so when it was a double betrayal because the OW was your close friend. That is a horrible situation, very difficult to face. But you have been doing really well in holding yourself and your little family together, GALing, DBing, doing the best you can. I so respect you for it.

You wish this was all over already, but as you said, your H is on his own timeline thru his crisis. You did not deserve it or want it, but have chosen to Stand in a most honorable fashion. I know that forgiving our Hs and their OW (and ourselves too) is really important for our own peace of mind T, but it, for me at least, it has not been instant nor easy. I think it's something we have to turn over to God. Still another thing to give up, and trust that He will help us.