Feel like falling down

[willbwell]

sil in town. had dinner with her last night. she doesn't see talk to h.

h is in city where ow is.

I have asked him to not text d when he is wit ow. that it is an insult.
d did not hear from h yesterday or this AM. he usual is to text d every AM.

feeling overwhelmed. maybe with holidays and exams approaching.

feeling sadness. I know my gifts. I know joy and happiness.it creeps in though. the thought that h has chosen someone else.
the anger that h doesn't recognize all that I do for our children.

the sadness that h just doesn't care.
in his mind, we are D.

I feel those feelings. can't just push them down and away.

I focus on me, the kids , my studies.

I tell myself to thought stop!

time to get to class