I have a horrible confession to make so please don't ban me from these boards.

I stooped to his level and lied. He told me he was hiking in the mountains yesterday. This morning I saw a bag from AC Moore in the basement. The receipt was from just a little after I had been there and I started panicking that he had seen me and heard me on the phone with my sister talking about DB and Detaching and GALing.

So I called him and asked if he was there yesterday. He immediately started acting like I was accusing him of not being where he said he was going to be. Which I was.

I do realize I broke many rules and have majorly backtracked m

Now here is where the lie comes in. I have been working really hard not to start arguments over his many lies. (He says he found a box of condoms in the v yard and didn't know where they came from. I said ok and vwalked away) I didnt want him to v know I saw the receipt so I said I was just concerned because I saw 2 charges from same day on account. He informs me he paid with his other credit card. (The one he opened a few months ago and I have no access to) I back pedal and say I will just check with bank.

I feel so awful. I am no better than him. I want to apologize but then it may be better to just drop it. I have tried calling - I know bad. Of course he isn't answering.

How do people sustain lies. This is driving me crazy.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15