Okay, let me preface this by saying that you are amazing to be so strong through all the nutter activities over especially the past year!!
Two, I really feel compassion for your H right now. While I cannot even guess where or what is in his head,even with his manic phase, he seems more lucid at times than I've seen him portrayed.
With lucidity begins to come flashes of " WTF have I done?"
I thought it was evident in the apology to S and the money to D, two things that even six months ago he wouldn't have done.
I am not saying the guy is repentant and now beating himself over the head. I am saying there just seems to be momentary clearing as the fog drifts for just the instant.
I can't even begin to know how I would deal with the pain I caused if I was your H. I don't know if I could even go there myself.
