I would like to have no expecatations of him but the fact is I need to have some idea of his thinking so I can plan alittle.
I am a super planner. I mean, it's my favorite thing to do. Usually I pack my calendar full of stuff, and well in advance. I have gotten to the point where now I can only plan about 48 hours in advance. (And some of those plans I have to play by ear depending on how I feel at the moment.) I despise uncertainty. It is killing me. But . . . I do not ask H, because I know that he is not in a place to R right now. So if I force the issue, the answer will have to be D. And that is NOT what I want. I count each day that he doesn't mention D, or that he says he has hope we can fix things, as a great day.
I think the forcing the issue is a bad idea, if you think there is any chance of saving your M. I know it's incredibly difficult to have such an uncertain future, but it's the nature of the beast, if you decide you are going to DB.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
