"You're My Best Friend"

[reachingHigher]

Oh uRw, it is. It is taken in the right way. I am so glad you said what you did!

It's response of what I wanted and needed. I just actually expected some response in that I was waiting to be asked to the birthday party and didnt go to the concert instead. The truth is, I really did want to be invited to the birthday party...altho I don't really know why. I don't really have anything in common with any of H's friends!

I told H recently that in December, I wanted to go to a dinner theater that is an hour from our house. They are having a Christmas comedy and it would be fun to go with another couple. So he asked two guys from work if they want to go with us and bring their wives! That is something I would much more enjoy! I hope at least one couple goes with us.

Back to me. I'm really perplexed about what to do about me. The family reunion we had in September, (with the 3 sisters and dad) really uncovered some serious issues from my past. My sisters all deal with it in different ways--they are using anger, obesity and EFT. My way is avoidance.

I've brought it up with our C and she said to focus on positive memories of any kind from my past. I've been trying but feel in such a slump. I feel my self-confidence has taken such a beating. I felt much, much stronger last year when ready to go through a D! Now, it's much more difficult.

And my three boys (H, and S20 and S14) all like to have me stay in the role of homemaker.

So....back to your response...I'm not really sure who I am or want to be.

Maybe I should start there?

Instead of a "to do" list ... a "to be" list?
Who I want to be and what my dreams are?

I read a lot of stuff on this forum sometimes and a lot of it goes over my head! I'm not such a deep thinker or analyzer. Really. But I see what you're saying uRw. I see its a problem. And I really want I make a change here. B/c otherwise, I'll just end up being a caretaker for the rest of my life and I feel I have more in life I want to do than that!