So it has been a long long week and it is only Wednesday. He said he slept all weekend... He was not on any electronic devices so i believe him.. I wonder what happened to this OW??
He is so ashamed of seeing her.. Wonder how that makes her feel?
Sounds like he is not coming down this weekend. Feels like he is just going to retreat step by step and never have a discussion about it. Which leaves me in limbo and that really sux. he redirected his post then denied it, changed his car registration, bought my favourite wine and took it to his apartment. We have not talked about the R since he said he wanted time and space and to live for himself. and working on the marriage wouldn't work for him
I do not know where that leaves me at all really. Luckily I don't have Thanksgiving as a holiday to think about I am guessing I will be alone that weekend as well. But I do have Christmas and that is loomimg large- 2 weeks here alone .. not any fun and everyone I know is already organised..
I am not contacting him unless I have to ( I had a letter from the electricity people asking me to unplug the solar electricity. I had to email to ask how to do that). We talked for about 3 minutes last Saturday and exchanged a couple of texts Sunday and he answered the email about the electricity but not about weekend plans.
So I was too controlling and I am trying to not control but I also want to plan for my weekends.. Do I just plan to be away and if he says he is planning on coming down say sorry no! I won't be here. Would be a good 180. I have not spent the week waiting for him but it has still been a tough week. I hate living alone, really hate it. I have way too much time on my hands... I run for kilometers and walk the dog for hours- now I am being told I am losing too much weight- never thought that would be possible.
He always sounds irritated when we speak and is super stressed when he is here --- Guess it is better he doesn't come then???? Is that controlling to say don't come down if it doesn't make you happy??? I have booked another coaching session.. I am just confused and I hate that
