3, I feel you on the sleeping trouble. It's like adding insult to injury, having so much to deal with emotionally and then being unable to get enough sleep to be able to deal with it. I wish I had an answer for you. Have you tried doing some journaling right before you go to sleep?
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But you know what ... my current life is a million times better than the life I was living just one year ago. I feel like a completely different person. I am strong and confident. I am happy with my little family. Dont get me wrong, I am still traumatized by the current state of my marriage and the loss of my best friend. But I would not go back to my life last year.
Good for you, 3! You are amazingly strong, both for setting your boundaries with H, and for recognizing what is hard to admit - that things are better now.
I don't know how to dx your H with his problems and bad behavior over the past couple of years. But I don't think that I have ever read any posts where you have said that he was out getting drunk or acting recklessly. He always sounds like a family man to me. (Well, as much of a FM as one can be while up and leaving his family.) With your boundaries, he seems to be respectful. Do you think that H has done some work on himself during this time? Do you ever talk about what happened over the past couple of years?
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
