So after all that he lost the wedding band. He had it in the pocket of his jeans. I couldn't stop nyself from saying "so where did you take your jeans off last night" even as I was saying it I was telling myself STOP. He again said he had just been out driving. (Is there anyway I am completely wrong about the A?)

So now I feel we have taken 100 steps back. He is now keeping his bag in his trunk so another layer of secrecy. I never snooped through bag. I wasn't snooping in phone when I saw first heart breaking text. We had open access to phones bags drawers because we had nothing to hide. I admit I did snoop once all the password protection went up but stopped. It did nothing but anger him and make me sad.

I am off work today so I am planning to exercise and then digging into DR.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15