House sold, got new one, family breaking up....

[FloydMan]

Hey Whiterose....ya, I need the knee problem like a hole in the head. It won't be fixed until the new year so hobbling until then. Torn miniscus and acl. Believe it to not, I did it in the move at 2:00am in the summer and has gotten worse. Makes it more bitter. Oh well...surgeon says it can be fixed and healing after surgery will only be a couple weeks so that is cool.
Date was nice a couple weeks ago. I like her....more my age and head together. Has been through what I went through ... Hers was 4 years ago. She is a lady for sure. i would like to see her again. we have texted a bit but timing to go out again has been tight with our schedules with the kids. i had been seeing someone a bit for the last five or 6 months or so...nothing too serious and then she told me she loved me in the summer. Then i started to have feelings. got a little confusing. She is only 30 and a little aloof at times. Very attractive, but have been down that path and maybe a little self absorbed. It cooled off a bit the last 2 months and i was feeling a little controlled. I like her but it was a little frustrating. Had not seen her in 6 weeks and then she stood me up last week....I was peeved a little. I did not need that. She just asked me for coffee earlier tonight so we went and I thought she was gonna let me down but said she wants to continue. She is a little irresponsible and controlling ....always her terms...and I don't really need that right now. Been there. I like equity and less pretence. The attraction I have for her is shallow and maybe messing me up so gonna back off. I dated a bit right after separation last year and I really liked that lady. Used to work with her. She said she always liked me. We had some nice dates but I was going through hell at the time so I had to back off a bit and she totally understood. We kept in some contact to chat etc. I just wasn't ready. I reached out to her this summer when I felt more ready and now she is involved with someone. We connected a couple weeks ago and she is still seeing him but wants to keep in touch so we communicate as friends.
So, I would say to you definitely it is too early to date seriously so don't pressure yourself like I did....it is confusing. I am more ready now emotionally but logistically some challenges. Companionship is nice...it does get lonely like I have been feeling. Just protective with my heart right now. So maybe I have to deal with the loneliness for now until I can be myself with someone and be fair to them too.
If someone nice asks you out, take them up on it if you are comfortable and just have a nice time with no expectations. Just be honest with the person where you are at. Lonely nights are hard...I miss my kids when I don't have them. Get them tomorrow until Sunday night though so looking forward to that.
Ex-wife is still playing games. We are in for a battle the next few weeks for settlement and court looming in Dec. she sucked me into a BMW 6 weeks before she left and still wants more. The well is dry. Very selfish, bitter person she is. Weird.