Thanks all for the welcome, wish I wasn't here either
Background: h is going to a cocktail party. He mentioned it in passing last week. I find out that common friend who is about to live in same building as H is going to same party.
I ask him what day party is on, because friend said she has one and can't make a girls night.
He confirms it is same party.
This is yesterday and today just having a rough day. Didn't have to work, but find that work is actually key to keeping the hamsters off the wheel.
Also, have to deal with lung cancer ( mom) who has had surgery and doctor says five years plus.
November svcks here..... All bleacky and rainy and cold.
Internship and school, not making money.
House looks like, well, no time no money and leaves everywhere lmao!! And we are not in the part of town where this is okay.....
So I am just having a freaking pathetic day. H texts and asks if I'm okay, cuz I seem not there. Then explains why he never told me about friend's cocktail and framed it as work cocktail. That he was feeling a little loserish and to say thAt our friend got him the invite made him sound less impressive.
I basically said that I had a lot of biggies to feel pathetic about, just not your basic " oh I feel fat cuz I ate all the ice cream and am a crappy house keeper. That I knew exactly where these emotions were coming from and the trick was to let them roll. That his cocktail party wasn't it.
It was...a bit...thought he might be lying again. So that just added to the crap of the day.
The best thing about tomorrow is that you get to start again
